The dream of an own child

My name is Merita Krasniqi, I come from Kosovo and I am 37 years old. The country is a very beautiful country, but it is very weak economically. I was a housewife in Kosovo, like many women. I was married and took care of the household. I couldn’t work because I couldn’t afford the trip to the capital.

My whole family lives in Kosovo, it is my home. We lived a beautiful life, unfortunately there is no work. Many people suffer from it. I lived with my husband’s family, my husband provided for the whole family with his salary. I have been married for nine years, we want children and hope that people in Germany can tell us why it has not worked out until today. I was always a family man, so the separation was incredibly difficult for me. Since the death of my mother 15 years ago, I took her part. I took care of the family, it still hurts me today to be far away from them. My father is suffering from kidney disease, every time my family calls me I am afraid that something has happened to him. I often think about going back to him, but I don’t have the money. It hurts me.

My husband has lived in Germany since the beginning of the Kosovo War. He was an asylum seeker here, was not allowed to work. He was deported, he asked the authorities why he was never allowed to work. He never got an answer. My husband would like to earn money, but he is not allowed to. Now he wants to work again, he has made a new asylum application. He has not yet received an answer. The authorities tell us that the Balkans have the least chance of staying here. The first ones are from the war zones. That makes me very sad. I want to learn the language and my husband wants to be able to work here. I wish to visit my family. My biggest wish is to have a child.

I feel good after I telling my story, the atmosphere was very pleasant.

Storyteller’s name:  Merita Krasniqi
Interviewer’s name: Sarah El Desoke and Dafina Sinani
Country of origin: Kosovo
Sex: f
Age: 37

Dublin Core: Language: de Subject: refugees, asylum, a million stories, Kosovo, germany